My best friend...i have lost...My views have been misplaced lately, i look only at the results and not at the reason, Ryan, your cause was noble and your morales well set, but all actions have reprecussions and that is what i have came to find out, a mix of your concern and my anger has caused a age old friendship to die, which is far worse then losing a job and house, but whenever something goes wrong i find myself asking why instead of actually thinking about the reason it happended in the first place, I want all of you to know this is never what i intended, i just wanted a summer job so i could have a little extra cash to get my license and fix my car and stuff, and yet, it happended, so now i am here again, at a decision makeing point, i can just see the saving grace of all of this, School, where i don't have this job anymore, and i get to see my friends on a daily basis again, seeing someone on a daily basis can have a great influence on peoples life, after all it was school where i met you Ryan and where we became friends, well i have lived her for a month now, i havn't even seen my family much, and it has changed my mind set, i don't want a war waged in between lakeside and my friends, cause i know where i stand, and believe it or not it is with you guys, you are my friends, this is just a house and job, and joey is my friend also, and he isn't that bad of a guy, i thought i have had to deal with so much stuff lately but i see you have had to deal with so much more Ryan, i'm not sure what else i can say, i need to see you, i got wednessday and thursday off, come here, we can go swimming or something, or you can take me away from this place, me and monica was going to come visit you yesterday and settle all this, no one here hates you and they don't want any trouble, if i had a mode of transportation i would hang out with you, well i hear i stand, with my hand out ready to shake hands, if you are concerned and want to be there i would glady take your hand in friendship again, but if you turn and walk away i will understand and have to live with the reprecussions of my actions, the choice is yours, -nathan-