obviously you need someone to commit and i need someone to give me what i want. and what i want is for someone like you to not exist. i swore we had this conversation days ago but i don't recall yelling at you the last time so the topics obviously weren't the same. my mistake. i'm not sure how this subjet came up, but i'd like to know so i can avoid it at all costs. you set me up with land mines all around and you want me to close my eyes and just start running. let me make this a little clearer for you: just running is just a little impossible for me. and no, i don't want to talk about it. which is fine, because you wouldn't pressure me into talking about things like that because thats just not the person you are and that's what i loved about you. i even wrote you a five and a half page letter about it. and i addressed it perfectly and attached the right amount of postage so it would get to you without delay. so i still don't know what you're complaining about. it's not like you didn't get an invitation in the form of a letter the other day inviting you to know exactly what was going on. so i'm going to have to ask you to focus. that would be great. so back to my point: the distance. we've talked about it for so long that we've both made it seem like it wasn't an issue anymore. well, i lied - it was always an issue for me. and tonight i just wanted to see what you'd say, so i stayed a little longer even though you were throwing red flags to run like you were winning some sort of goddamn contest against me. but thats when things really heated up. you brought it to my attention and told me you were worried that i wouldn't commit. i started asking questions that you had to struggle to answer, because i knew exactly what i was doing. i listened to you politely crush everything i had been working for. and you showed not even the slightest bit of remorse in your eyes. but it was finally coming true. i finally had the perfet example to show you exatly what i've been meaning to say since the first day i met you. "stay away from me." and you never listened. in fact, more often than not you followed that line with a compliment. even though that was far from what i wanted. truth is - the distance was more of an issue than you thought it would be. and that just proved me right. i knew exactly what i was talking about and i would've given anything to have you see it. but no, you were just too in love at the time. good thing there was a sober mind between the two of us. so you finally admitted the issue. that the distance is a problem for both of us. you want something that i can't give to you and i don't know what you want from me. i can't give you any more than i'm already giving and that still isn't good enough for you. at the risk of sounding cliche, i'll never be good enough. i'll never be able to give you what you want because i don't want any of that. and i dont think i could live with myself if i asked you to settle for a life you dont really want just so you can be with me. so i'll do what i do best, i'll run. i'll say some snide comment that will make you second guess my love for you, and then i'll say my tride and true line about, "i'm bad news. just forget you ever met me." and with any luck, you actually will.