yes, i really am, missing out on so much in my social life. it started this last summer. besides not having enuf money, motivation seems to have deserted me completely. and my friends are now noticing that i am really hard to get invited into anything. last night was the proof. it was meg's early 19th bday celebration and at the same time louise's 18th bday. meg's party wwas held at the foodshop, the famous drinking place in our school. ning's having a buffet feast in her aunt's house. so saan naman ako pupunta diba? the fact na nauna ang invitation ni louise, i already said yes to both(yes, i know, that was bad of me to do so)and in the end of the day, i stayed at home.hah. yeah, i did, and i have a good reason to do so. i went to gym the day before and the desire to lose some weight slapped me in the face the following morning. i could not move my muscles. haha.add the nice weather(i was so thrilled when it started to rain, hard) plus my ever lack of motovation, and there you go, wala kong pinuntahan. and the truth is, this attitude of mine is starting to scare me. was it because i really lack motivation to move my ass, or because i dnt want to company? its not the latter for sure, but i find my laziness harder and harder to cure. gah! and meg and i almost got into a light argument about it. hindi ko na lang pinalaki, kasi kapag mas lalo nila akong pinapaguilty na kesho ang hirap ko daw ayain, lalo akong nawawalan ng gana pumunta.its not that mahirap akong ayain, kaya lng the circumstances are just not the lucky. laging may hindrances. and i guess yun ang hindi nila maintindihan. oh, well.i just have to let this out. im off downloading death note soundtrack. love light!haha