Felix seems so depressed lately. I wish I could make everything better in his world. I want to hold him... and make him laugh, smile, and feel the tingling feeling of love. I want to be everything to him and for him. I just don't want to "date" him while hes still in Germany. I wish he was here... so I COULD take care of him. Bah.... I miss him.... and I love him more..... But none of this seems to matter anymore...