wish that 'current mood' was the truth... :( today is now officially the worst day of my life... my parents got mad at me for never being home (i'm always home by 7pm and tonite i came home at 8:30pm because danny took me out to dinner) and now they're taking away my car and grounding me for a long time. they didn't say how long, they just said for a long time... felix is upset with me... i'm pretty positive that hes mad at me and i don't know what i did. he says i'm playing with people and that my "friends" (like they aren't really my friends or something... i dunno i'm assuming that he thinks they actually hate me or something) are telling me that hes upset about it but that hes really not. i'm trying to be nice and a friend to him because I don't want to lose contact with him. is it so bad that a boy asked me out and i said yes because i wanted to try to move on? i want to get together with felix in the future and start over, when hes in the states... he just can't understand how hard it is for me to have a long distance relationship like that. I mean... poulsbo or silverdale is hard enough (i've asked all my friends and their friends and they say the same... you need to see a person and spend time with them in person to make it really be a relationship, no matter how much you love them) but he can't understand that... it makes me sad. and i don't know why hes getting mad at me now... i wish things were ok with us and we could be friends until he came back. thats what we agreed on the last time we broke up. everything is so fucked up... i just feel like dumping danny, never hanging out with my friends and just coming home after school everyday, doing homework, and going to bed early. I just feel like shit... god i wish i could just die right now... :( ...fuck everything...