Sinister secrets stay locked up inside, under the tears the hurting can hide, behind the facade of laughing and smiling, all the bad feelings are piling and piling. I have to ignore it; I have to be strong, but this has been going on for too long. Trying to forget just adds to the strain, the memories come back again and again. I remember a time I was innocent and clear, but you took that away and filled it with fear, the memories are vivid, the pain is still there, but that I know, I will never share. You made me dirty; when you touched me, you knew, that this was not what I wanted to do. I was scared and defeated, I wanted to leave, I hated myself for being naive. Why me? What did I do? The truth is, I did nothing to you, to you it was fun, only a game, to me it was constant torment and pain. You are haunting me in my dreams at night, I go to sleep and relive the fright. What hurts me most is your lack of regret, for giving me memories, I'll never forget.