...felix wrote me an e-mail and asked "WTF, Rae? You don't even love Danny???? Then please do tell me, if it isn't fucking physical, JUST WTF IS IT?" First of all... (i want to make sure i note this for myself) all I've done with danny is quick kisses on the lips... no making out and definetly no sex. This relationship is definetly not all about sexual stuff. Its about having someone there to hold you and care for you when you feel like no one else does. Its about taking care of another person and having fun with another person. Its about being happy. Secondly, no... I don't love Danny. Love isn't something that just happens (love at first site... sure maybe... but not in all cases) if I am ever going to love danny it would have to be something that grows over time and I don't tell him I love him, because i don't. He doesn't tell me that he loves me either, because he doesn't. We like eachother and we want to have fun together on a higher level than friends. The American culture is so much different than German culture and Felix seems to be having a hard time understanding my culture. I think I understand his and I'm trying to respect it. But here, in the states, its not "the only people you date are ones you love" and its not "if you don't love them your just fuck buddies" I know I want to say more about this and I know what I want to say. I just can't form the words so I'm going to leave it, I don't want to say things that aren't what I want to say. (if that makes sense) ...he wrote me 4 more e-mails telling me he doesn't know anymore and that hes just frustrated and he bets i think hes faking with the suicidal stuff... and well, no, I know hes serious because I saw how depressed he can get when he was here... I just wish taht we could both understand eachother better...