god so many fucked up things happen in life. i hate it. i mean its like nothing ever goes the way you want it to. you try so damn hard to make your life look easy but you know and everyone knows its not. james and me are now not friend anymore. he told me to forget i ever met him all because i dumped his cousin for my happiness. but whatever i shouldnt talk to him anyways because its bullshit what he did to me. for some reason i cant stop thinking about this. i want to forget so bad but it haunts me.
i feel like shit
i went with karin and tansie to the movies on friday and saw the boogeyman it was fun and the mall was cool. the wierd thing was that we had stalkers and they kept following us for money. ok so yea that was a nice pleasant suprise.
super bowl....the patriots vs the eagles.........hmmmmm i wonder who will win.... i really dont have a side but i heard the patriots were good. so yea..
i was listening to smile empty soul earlier and this song touched me in so many ways:
some days are better, they're better than others
can't run forever, you're pushing me under
what a way to live my life
i'm hiding from the battles i don't want to fight
what have i become
and now it's going grey
all the lines are blurring and decayed
i can't recall exactly who's to blame..... anymore
is it me or is it you , something isn't right
of all the things that we could do we just wanna fight
someday i will find the courage to embrace you
someday i will find the strength to erase you
some days i think i'm nothing without you
sometimes i wish that i could just kill you
what a way we live our lives
it's hard to breathe
it feels like i'm infected by my dad's disease
and now it's going grey
and you're the one i chose to feed me pain
and i'm the one you bring home so ashamed.....through their eyes