drowning

by darkfaith
Feeling: frustrated
ive been extra pissed off lately. parents decided to offically split and are going for the divorce. so its big on me. i mean i have enough problems as it is so yea this just pisses me off even more. but the part that pisses me off the most is that my mom is suffering alot. and it hurts me. my dad is moving out in the weekend and so yea, then by the end of this week its the paper work. i cut in first period today, twice. it helped me realize that yea this world is just so damn unfair. i didnt want to cry anymore, so i decided to bleed instead. i told yessy and she choked me, but she understood why i did it, i told tasha cause shes been through it, i told ana cause shes also been through it and i told alexis ofcourse and he started to worry but he didnt get mad and made me feel a little better. and during 5th james and javier made me laugh by joking around but they dont know why i did it. ill eventually tell james though. i love this song i read this lyrics from a song i like, they also made me feel better....in an odd way. Drowning in misery The nightmare began when you closed the door You sat in your angry chair and just tried to be you The needle became your queen The drug had become your enemy And music was just a way for you to bleed if anyone has been through a divorce, please give me tips to get through it. please. thank you.
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:( :( curse him!!!

don't cut,

get drugs from me:)

MUCH more enlightening...

plus theres a euphoric niceness...

and its easier to

fuck madly

but ima bit of a slut so..

guess it depends on how you torture

yourself....

laters

-angela
crap.. i feel your pain. though i dont know jack shit about feeling a divorce between my parents and i hope i don't... but i really wish things would get better for you. and i know it's really tough, but i dunno... i really don't know what to say, honestly.

feel better. i'm here for you, always.
Sometimes I wish my parents would just get a divorse and get it over with. Every time they fight I end up geting upset during school, cuting always helps me, even though some one always flips on me for it. Your lucky your friend understands.
[Anonymous]
Things do get better, for awhile at least.
[Anonymous]
i'm sorry about your parents, my aunt and uncle are going threw the "devorce thing" too.
I got athe site from sum1 on here.. I cant rememba what it was called.. i will try find out soon and tell you when i nkow.
Howd u leave a comment on my diary when you aint on ym friends list?
its all good. I'll add you rite now 2.. But i duno if im gohna stay on using this diary.. Buma about your parents, you'll get thro it tho, u'll be alrite. Dnt wory.. I cant really help you coz i dnt no at ur going thro, my parents r 2getha. But sum1 will be able to help ya. And you'll have heaps of people wiv ya thro it all. You'll be fine.

nice diary.
Yeah ive been there, but i was little i didnt really know what was going on. Alot of me friends parents are still together so they dont get. If you meet new people and they ask were your dad is and you tell them, be prepare because they will ask 'oh really? do you miss?' its been 14yrs and every new friend i make always asks me. You knwo where to find me if you need anything
jus think of the positive things liek how u wont hav 2 listen 2 any more arguments an how it will b 2 only hav 2 convince 1 parent 2 let u do wat u wana do..mi parents arnt divorced but sumtimes i wish they were..i wish u the best in gettin thru it