What do you do when the one reason for you being is gone? Which path do you take when it seems as though theres nothing but a brick wall all around you? How do you beat life when life is at it's lowest and keeps getting lower? I don't even know what I am saying. I don't even know what is going on with my life. Everything I have been living for a little over the past year just halted. I've never known a love that I have for you. I am sorry for what happened between us. I don't know what will come of us. I don't know if we will be again, if we will just be friends, or if we will ever see each other again. Everything you want to know of me I want to know as well. Please understand though, I don't even know what is going to happen so I can't give you any answers. Theres one thing I know though, I am going to hold on. I prayed really hard about everything last night. When I woke up before I even thought about anything, especially since it was to early to even think, out of nowhere I heard "Hold On." I don't know where I heard it from but I know it wasn't me and I'm pretty sure it wasn't anyone else because I was in the shower. I'm not going to let go, ever. This isn't something you are given just to let go of. If it takes me living the rest of my life miserable then that's what it takes. I love you.