im not gonna make this private, even though it could be. whats the point of a private entry on an online diary? if you dont want people to write it why put it online. but yeah whatever. to the more "interesting" stuff. life just sucks. i cant even talk to the one person i want to. they dont think we should talk right now. it just sucks. move on if you want, i know i wont. if im stuck here forever then oh well im stuck. but atleast ive found true love. something that can never be overwrote. so why try to have something else with someone else? ive found out these past couple of days that you really dont appreciate how much someone/something means to you until youve lost it. i can only pray that YOU realize that to. dont be upset at me, dont be upset at yourself, instead just be upset and hurt. we both did this to ourselves. we both have to change it. we both have to make a difference. without us both then it wont be. you once told me that i have to give it 110% well now its me that is putting my heart into everything and it doesnt seem like im getting it back. i am not bashing you in anymeans, but i am just communicating what i see happening. we cant talk in person or anyother way, well maybe you will read this. you know who you are. if this isnt to you and you are just reading this to read it and be nosey, then screw you, what goes around comes around. i hope that 2x4 in the face feels good when it gets there. ive grown up quicker than you can imagine. ive felt things i didnt think were real. thanks to you im a different person. and hopefully one day, thanks to you i will be able to share that person with you again...