To whom it shall concern, Hey. Havn't wrote in a while, Just been busy. Bunch of crap going on. I have been so freaking bored. Dieing of boredom here. lol. Well lets see. I think it was Friday I found out that my brother has to go to Iraq or Kwait either January or April. Thats just wonderful. I freaking hate this country always butting into other countries bussiness. My god when is our fucking "Leader" going to get his ass out of his comfy chair and go and fight for our country. Fucking bastard, lets just kill everyone elses friends and family off cause I am better then everyone else. EERRGG! Gosh, I hate this world. My brother only has to go for four months so, thats good. It still sucks though and it pisses me off. It also makes me just wanna cry. I mean what if he dies? He is my only sibling and I love him to death. If anything ever happened to him I would die too. I donno what I would do without him:( :( :( :( :( :( Gosh, I just wanna go and cry. My dad told me and I just wanted to cry right there and then my mom kept talking about it. I just held it all in cause hey, thats what I do best. I hide my emotions. I just can't let people in, they always seem to screw me over. It just all sucks now. There is so much more that is bad, but I really don't wanna put it all in here. I wanna get away for once. Just go away from it all. I wish I could buy a one way ticket to another planet and live there untill I was ready to come home. Theres nothing here for me anymore. I donno why I stay in this place. I wish I could move away and never come back. I mean yea I would miss alot of people but after a while they would forget about me and move on. People normaly do anyways so....Well I think I am gonna go and get lunch. I might right later. Maybe not. I gotta go update my icon site soon. Bye. *~JC*~