To whom it shall concern, Hi. If you read my entries from before then you know why I feel helpless. Gosh, I just feel like laying down and dieing. I read Kathleens diary and I just lost it all. I thought at first I was ok with my brother going to Iraq or Kwait. But, just haveing it hit for the first time was bad. To actually read it not in my own words. It kills me to think about it. It hurts so bad. I donno how people do it. How they can not think about it and every time they do, tears don't come to their eyes. All I have to say is that they are strong ass people. It's not bad enough that Michael is going it's that his heart is just not into it anymore. The airforce just was not what he expected it to be and he misses us all *SO* much. I can't wait for him to come hom. Even if it is for only a week or so. I wish he could be here for my 16th birthday *so* much, see me go to homecomeing in the dress he bought just for me and for him to just be here. Just the things he is gonna miss when he is gone makes me cry. The things that he should be able to see. Watch me grow up in the way I watched him. I am gonna miss him alot. Even if it is only for four months, but ya know what? That can turn into a lifetime with in seconds:( Well I am gonna go. ♥~*Johnna*~♥ ♥♥♥Luv Ya Cracker ♥♥♥ ^Don't ask....It's a brother/sister thing:)