today has been ight.I went to the doctor today..for my annual 5 year check up..the holes still there and my heart beats still irregular..but im strong bitches.Im tired tho,I think the fact that they uped the dosage of all my meds is making me so tired nd krazy.Im back to having a schedule with my psychiatrist nd psychologist..3 times a day for the nex two months for both..with 2 hour sessions.Lately ive been feeling shitty..i dont have time to play with my kids or take em newhere cos im never in the mood cos im always drained or sick.Somthing good happened yesterday,my dad fell on ice and hit his head nd he then continued to get back up 2 more times then fall back on his head and neck.He has a mild concussion and cant remember a damn thing.I hope he stays like that so we can juss put him away in a home nd tell him he has no family nd let them have their way..sike im not that mean.Im so lonesome..Heaven and Angel are in miami for a month with their mom ..randi's with her momma down in katy and britney took the girls and devin to california to see her mom..so home alone till wednesday.friday im goin to missouri to see the best of the best cas corey and jay,,then were gon to erie pa to see petey and brian and my sister.ight well bout to drive down to austin to see my dad nd my stepmom ..be easy TADEMS better than all the rest..SHE REALLY IS