tear drops drizzle down my cheeks i've lived with this pain and sorrow for weeks it lays bottled up inside me and fills me with doubt. i hide in my room with the lights turned out by definition im alive but by meaning im dead im scared of the thoughts that run through my head. the smile i plaster on my face is a lie. sometimes i feel better if i let myself cry. --------------------------------------------- -Final Rest- at night when im trying to go to sleep i drift into thoughts that are so deep. my mind wanders off and to me its very tough to be thinking of u when u have someone new. i watch the dark night and there is nothing that comes into sight. i start to feel tears coming down my face at a very continuous pace. i try to stop the tears from falling but they keep coming my heart is broken and your heart was stolen. i wish you the best, now i must get rest. so, i have decided to take my life within beacuse without you by me my life cannot be. --------------------------------------------- dont disrespect me cuz you dont know me. dont assume things just cuz u want my attention.dont fucking mess with me because you think i wont do anything. dont mess with my rage. dont try to scare me, it wont work. the rage rules over everything. it wont let anything else i feel for you come out. its your fault i dont trust anyone. its your own fault your life is like it is. you cant deny that im not destroying it. you no i am. you know i wont stop so you act like nothings wrong. well this bitch wont let you forget. she'll make you dwell on it. til the day you go to hell. my rage will drive you there. --------------------------------------------- -Last Breath- the blood red fountain has erupted calm through pain, my skin corrupted pen knifes- blunted, razors red it tires me out, insides are dead i need the pain because i know its better out than inside, my body can confront the pain, give me attention just one little smile tame me in ur arms and hold me awhile give me passion, your heart and your love. and i'll give you the moon and stars, from heavens above. but till that serene moment, i'll just lie here. slowly going insane with my razors, the self inflicted pain and the scars will stay, a twisted memory of the days when blood let my spirit run free. --------------------------------------------- sinful thoughts, my hear races and adrenaline pumps hard through my veins i bore a hole right through the bitch infront of me. her words contradicting, her slight anger tiny compared to mine. images of her destruction play through my mind. --------------------------------------------- lauren <3