Sometimes I don't give people as much credit as they deserve. It makes me feel evil and incredibly stupid. To be completely honest and make myself feel horrible, I think I'm better than too many people far too much of the time. I think I'm cooler than I really am, and I need to snap out of it before it slaps me in the face without any warning. I need to be a bit more low-key and not talk so much. I need to realize that not everyone wants to have conversations with me, much less actually be my friend. I need to stop wanting so much attention. Because I always want attention, from everyone that is willing to give it to me. I mock others for always trying to appear in such spotlights, while I myself will say things I don't mean to make others laugh, or act like I don't care if I get in trouble to seem cooler. I realize when I do that, and I hate it. I need to ease up on Mom and stop thinking I've got it so tough sometimes, because I don't. I am a smart person that people can generally put up with, and I have parents that care about me. I can have money any time I ask, and there are virtually no limitations on my home life. It is easy for me, but I always seem to make it harder. I need to stop. Even this here is just me making things more complicated than they need to be. I should suck it up, get over the fact that I don't like who I am, and just get on with things, such as living.