another summer of camp is completed. it's life. junior year of college is starting. that's life. found 8" x 10" canvases at ocean state job lot for $1.99 a piece. love life. at awkward part where camp is over and school hasn't started yet. get a life. quit smoking, started running. live life. french is still improving. la vie en rose. boop boop bop beep a doop. lately i've been having a repetitive epiphany. and i know that's a contradicting statement because an epiphany is a grand realization that comes to you once, but i keep having the same grand realization over and over again, each time as monumental to me as the last. it happens most when i'm driving. i realize that all the other cars on the road aren't just cars moving around, but that there're actual people inside them. and those people aren't just driving their cars aimlessly, but they're real people with their own thoughts and own destinations. they're going somewhere and thinking about something else and maybe even talking to another individual entity within their car, just like i am. they're going to go to their own home afterwards, just like i am. and they're going to live an entirely separate life from me. and to those people, my car is just another car in the road, and i am just another person playing an extra in the movie they know as life. to every person, the world is a backdrop, a green screen, a shot that never fully pans out. i can't imagine being able to fully understand the expanse of the world in which i live. my mind buzzes with the monotonous hum of what everyone's thoughts at this very moment would sound like, combined. no swells, no lulls. just constant. i wonder how many people are wondering how many people are having this same exact thought, and how many people are wondering how many people are wondering, and the fractals of my inquiry are infinite and i get lost. too lost, and overwhelmed. and the buzz fades out until once more, i'm driving or sitting in an airport or watching the news, and it hits me that i'm not the only person that thinks or has a real life. and there it is again: epiphany.