you realize that you've grown up when you turn twenty. you realize that you've grown up when myspace tells you that your best friend from sixth grade just got married to some guy from south carolina. you realize that you've grown up when almost all of your grandparents are dead, or close to it. you realize that you've grown up when you don't really pose for pictures. you realize that you've grown up when you overlook a shoddy city from the window of the porch of your own apartment. you realize you've grown up when all you can do is wish you'd never grown up. i have grown up.