I'm okay right now. Not trying to kill anyone or anything. So I guess I'm doing pretty good. I want music on my site but I really have no clue. I'm not tech savvy at all so, I'm real confused. i should be doing a language project I have had for four weeks. But, i can't bring myself to do it. Call it hardcore procrastination. I kinda just want to get a new journal and not give it to any of my friends so that I can talk about whatever the hell I want without feeling restricted. Because, I feel like I can't do anything anymore without being restricted. Sometime I get so pressured I wanna scream. Then I think about the good qualities of my friends. It's not too much, but it helps. Sorta.... Mom and Jeff are trying to make me go on a road trip with them to Colorado. I either need someone there with me, or I need to stay at someone's house because I really don't want to go alone with Jeremy. He is the better stepbrother and all, but I still fight like crazy with him. And, I kinda like Jeremy. Whoa, so odd. I REALLY hated him last year. Like Really. He was so mean to me, talking about stupid stuff that lowered my self esteem, such as acne, fatness, cellulite. You name it, he found a way to talk about it. Like, I just want to smack him and tell him to get over himself. But, he is so nice to me, now. I don't know what it is, but like this is the nicest he has ever been to me, which isn't really saying much because he was never nice, but this is kinda nice. i finally have a chance to look at him with something other than contempt. Well, yeah. I just don't know what to do with myself anymore. I feel pulled to this ghetto slang thang. B/c all of my friends are ghetto. But, I wanna do my own thing. I don't know. It started out I didn't do it, because I didn't want to get made fun of. Now, I just don't care... Well, I guess I'll be off then. xo, >S<