sometimes I just want to be free. I haven't been free since about march of this year. Everytime I get out of a relationship I jump right back into another one. And do you know what I've realized? All of my relationships are the same. The guy starts out being funny and nice and all of the sudden its like they suddenly feel ok taking advantage of me and my caring kind nature. I know that partly it could be my fault for letting them walk over me, but if they really liked me, would they walk over me? I just need someone who can like me for who I am. Not for who they want me to be. I think Brandon is cheating on me. Now I've never been cheated on, but I sort of have this feeling like I'm not the only one in his life. Its partly because hes so secretive, but mostly its insecurities getting the best of me. I just feel like something isn't right. I'm doing better in school. Who knew that if you decided to do your homework it would really pay off? Plus most of my classes are fairly easy. And when I say fairly easy. I mean quite easy. I guess thats good for me. Because I need to get my gpa up if I want to go college. I also need to go take my SAT in the spring and that is scary. Janay and I have become very close over that last couple of weeks. That is good...Guess thats all I had to say about that...