soo its been awhile since ive updates. for one. sitdiary decided to change the adress? soo that was wicked neat. and some crazyy shit has happened. with one thing. i think im kinda lettin go and gettin over it. and i feel wicked stupid because i knew this was going to happen. but everything happens for a reason right? ughh. and the other night. tuesday i think it was. brooke came here and we had a longg talk. which deffinitley made me feel better. got allott off the chest. and my mom pisses me off more then ever. shes soo set that im like she was in highschool. and i hate when parents think their funny because they think their cool because they think they know what you think. whatever. that makes sense to me. but it just fuckin irritates me i want to be like duhh you know how fucking stupid you look right now?!?! ughh i cannot wait to get out of this fucking place. im sick of this sheltered life. one year. and shes got no control over me. and my dads fuckin pissing me off too. everyone thats blood related pisses me off. seriously i think my purpose here is to make them happy by making me miserable. buttttt im learning to deal with this stuff muchh better then i used to. so i amm indeed proud of myself. its much easier to just like laugh it off letting them think they got to you. but really you know that they totally just made themselves look like fuckin idiots. and ill call it right now. when i leave for college my moms gonna be full of regrets. shes startin to see it already i think. i think shes startin to see that a year isnt that far away. and i think she realizes that shes pushed me away so much that she knows theres no chance in hell that shes keeping me here. because shes been doin that "you know i love you" shit again. one year till gooddbyyeee endwellll. its been real. its been good. but it hasnt been real good. so im outtt