the last entry was extremely lame. but i had quite the mix of emotions. soo tonight my love brooke ann is coming over and shes on her way so ill update the last few days. soo things with the girl drama is driving me insane. seriously were in fucking highschool now people. let alone in a few months were going to be fuckin seniors but you still want to create drama over the petty middle school shit. groww upp and get overr yourselfff. brooke ann is my bestest friend ever and i love her to fucking death. not just death. fuckingg death. and to me it seems that were better then ever. and ive just been soo happy lately. like everything seems to just be not perfect. but nottt baddd. last night tq never made it :( but its okk. me and brooke had another car chat. then when we went upstairs. brooke fell asleep :( but jusssttt as im finnaly starting to go to sleep which was like 1130is? my phone starts goin off. ususally i never remember to turn my phone on loud enough that i can hear it. but noo last night that fucker was on full blast. at first i was pissed because i was justt fallin asleep. but thenn. i wasnt :) and i was up for a long time. yayyy. i was deffintly quiteee the happy person last night. but it will be awhile before it happens again. today has been soo fucked up. i didnt go to sleep till like 5. my mom called at 6. 8. and again at 9. got texts from tara and olivia. all before 10am. nott a happy person about the lack of sleep. no one ever calls my phone and all the sudden everyones callin at the same time. so then i was up at like 9. 3 hours of sleep. let alone i havent been to bed before 2am every single day of the school week. buttt my lack of sleep has done tonnss of good for me. and im happy :) soo yeah were up by like 9. its so screwed up because it felt like 7? then i had practice in the coldd rainn. came home. and now it feels like 10pm amd its only 5.. soo yeah im soo screwed up today. soo idk im in a fabulous mood and this entry kinda just jumps all over the place. but im kinda hungry. and brookes gona be here. so ill update laterr. every exact word in this explains it alll my whole life is a mess right now all i can think about is you i dont sleep, i dont eat anymore and i discovered feelings that are so new i want to hear your voice every minute of the day so afraid of what you might say but everytime i smile.. i think of you its like a habbit, its the only thing i can do and everytime i laugh i picture you because your the only one that makes me happy its all thoes crazy things you do.