hmm today started off good. and nothing really bad happened. it just wasnt all that good. though shane did make my day today. tara left me today :( brooke olivia and tara have some "secret mission"? they have planned to do to me sometime this weekend. and apparently shane and michelle were informed of this too and noone will tell me what the fuck is going on.. but its all good. and the rest of the day.. was just whatever. and right now.. its not affecting me as much as i would think it would. but over all i feel hated. like honestly. i can think of two people that i dont think actually have some hatred towards me and thats thee brooke and tara. the loves of my life ofcourse. but still idk. im not tryin to be dramatic. but this is myy fucking diary. and im venting. does hatred and anger seem to control everrything im my life? .. umm yessss. so other then that. i have to rake and mow the yard. and go pick up my piece of shit car apparently? and hopefully out with the b-rook for awhile :) im barely hanging on..