this weekend and the rest of this year is majorly going to suck major ass and i want to crawl in a hole and die... hate and love have all become one in the same i dont understand life. i think i got it figured out. but sometimes i over think things and i end up screwing myself over. i dont know anyone anymore i dont know these people i once knew and who theyve become im so insecure and feel so alone. and i dont even know myself anymore. sometimes i dont recognize my own reflection at all.