California here i come right back where i started from...wait that's right i'm not going to california but my brother is!! yup My bro and my dad are taking a drive up to cali for a few days while i'm stuck here in az for dance recitals. sucks for me. My cousins just left for cali today and i was invited but no got dance recitals. Sometimes i wish i had no life so that i could actually go places. wait what am i saying? give up dance? never i love it too much! So over the summer im supposed to be reading cold mountain but i just can't get into it. I keep putting it down ever few pages. I wanted to read a lot of it before New yorkie but im way too lazy to concentrate... i mean its summer i should have a break from this shit. Im pretty pathetic i must say...every day i have a television schedule starting with two hours of dawson's creek then two great episodes of saved by the bell then the wonderful, dramatic PASSSIONS! And then i sit around watching other random shows when there are commercials. I hate those! Its funny, u lose someone u were once close too and everything around you reminds you of that person. Songs, movies, places, things, food, icces, etc. I do wish we were still friends i miss her, but i guess it just wasn't meant to be...although we've had many many crazy times together. i can't go to the mall without remembering all those times we did bizarre things like get stood up or stocking HOTT guys and singing newsies. i guess the mallrats died when our friendship did. XappleX