guess what everyone, i actually had a type of motivation today! for the first time in 4 days, i felt like doing something other than rolling over and dying! and it didnt have anything to do with 'her' either! theres more good news too! i actually ate a natural amount of food today! i still cant feel taste, but im making progress. and i also got 8 hours of real, 100% sleep! i think i might be recovering! it feels good to feel alive again!