why do i this? i try so hard to help everybody else yet here i am falling deeper and deeper into my own sin... whats wrong with me? am i so blind that i cant even see how much i need help? this is too much for me to do on my own, but there isnt anyone i can turn to. this world is falling apart. and once it falls, where will i be? what will happen to me? will everybody forget that i existed? will there be tears? will people even notice that im gone? .....what happened? what happened to that friend? the friend i could lay all my troubles on? theyve been there my entire life, not always as the same person, but theyve always been there when i needed them. where are they now? how did i lose touch with them? how could i have let myself loose touch with someone i held so dear? .....these eyes of mine are too wet with tears to read anymore.... God, i need you tonight. this heart of mine is broken and there isnt a friend left to save me. how can i heal this heart? God, this life is yours again. i cant lead my own life. every time i try, it falls to pieces. im desperate for you God. come back into my life. save me again. be my one and only god again. melt these walls of coldness built in me. come back into my heart and make me new again....