so yea....it's been almost a year... i dunno...it's been awhile since i have written in here. um...nothing much is really new. corey and i got back together again in september. would of been 4 months on the 28th of this month but he had to end it again. i keep saying this is my last time and i think this will be cause he ain't talking to me. this one was kind of a complicated break up. so we agreed to still be friends but we haven't talked since.(about a week ago) so i think i have given up on him. wow i'm like a broken record. it seems i always say that. but this time im DONE! um...still working at BK. sucks...but it gets me the money i guess. school sucks. i can't wait to get out of the high school. im hoping to go PSEO next year so ill get done at the college sooner. that'll be good. i've been talking to chris again. i dunno if that's a good thing or a bad thing. i really like the guy but i doubt ill ever meet him or anything. so yea..trying not to get my hopes up about that. well im gonna get going here. got shit tons of homework to do. adios

wow. i feel like i have lost a part of me but and in the same way i feel really happy about it. corey and i got back together last wednesday and then this saturday he broke up with me, when i was around a lot of family and friends, that we were over and saying that it would be best that we don't speak to each other. i wanted to cry so bad but didn't. it was very upsetting. not the fact that we broke up but the fustration with him. that's why i wanted to cry. but im past that and over him completely. yes, it's for GOOD this time! i promise you that my friends!! well today was kind of fun. had VBS at church this morning. now i have to go to work at 5pm-1am. wooo. how fun will that be! not very. well hope everyone is having a good day!! buhbye!

so yea.... we gots like 11 school days left and like 17 total days!!! counting weekends! how exciting is that?!?! VERY!!! well i think we should do something on the last day!!! i don't care what but SOMETHING! :) hmmm nothing is new with me. same ol' same ol' boring stuff. wow. i just realized that june 5th will be my 1 year at BK!!!! OH MY GOODNESS!!! lol... well im off! ADIOS!!!

well i'm at home. sick. wishing i wasnt at home. very boring. i got to sleep though. that was nice. now im trying to check up on homework. it sucks. hope y'all had a good day! :) Bailie

okay yes i know. i've needed a major update on this thing!!! well you got it folks. im updatin this sucka! well im NO LONGER with corey and will NEVER be with him again. yes, it's true no more drama with him! i'm done! sadly, he still texts me and tells me he misses me. ON A HAPPIER NOTE! i went to california for spring break. AMAZING! missed everyone in minnesota though. no lies my friends, no lies. i did miss you! but the weather was nicer there. well sorda i guess. haha... umm..lets see what else can i say. new term. classes still suck. hate school. don't like being at home. [who doesn't?] summer is coming soon and i can't wait to get my fishing license so i can go fishing whenever in the summer!!! im excited! WOO! there is like 30+ school days left of the school year. i'm excited for no school. sleeping in. doing nothing during the day. [except if ihave to work...] but yea. well nothing else to write about! bye!! p.s. HAPPY EASTER!!!!! :D

wow...it's been awhile!!! so i thought i would write!! woo! not like anyone comes on here much anymore!!! {me being one of them!} well nothing too much has happened i guess. my truck is up and running if y'all haven't noticed haha... :) i've been workin a lot so i haven't had much time to do anything really! well last weekend was really fun!!! except for the fact that i was sick the next day!! i can't believe i got sick just because we were out in the cold for what like maybe 30 mins or so?! grr...and im still sick!! makes me mad! oh well i guess... Even though i've said it before..Happy Birthday Lindsey and Sophie! Oh hey, Kenzie is next!! wow we got a string of birthdays!! they just never stop!! man oh man! well im done rambling!! i just thought to catch up on this!! so yea!! lata, -Bailie-

hey y'all!!! yea it's been FOREVER, i get it!!! haha...well since i haven't written and you guys keep telling me to, so i guess i will!! well um...im still at BK!!(sadly) um miriah pretty much tried getting me killed!!! she made me choke(spelling?) on my chicken sandwich!! it was bad!! it hurt and janine just sat there and laughed at with with miriah!! grrr... um...i got my braces off!! WOOO...first thing i did when i got home was eat some CARAMEL!!! i was in HEAVEN!!!! :D well i was going back out with corey and um...i guess he decided to end it thursday. i don't know why and it kind of bothers me cause he said we are good and he broke it off at like 12:30ishAM! so yea...that was a very sad thing to wake up to. on top of all that i've missed 2 days of school and way behind on everything!!! so hopefully this weekend i get everything done!! :D um...let's see....Lindsey's birthday is on sunday!! wooo...then you'll be getting your license!! that'll be fun! good luck on your test..when you take it!!! :D oh i can't forget!! i got a 1995 chevorlet S10 pickup from my uncle brad and aunt rose!!!! but it needs a lot of work...which im mad about cause i have to pay for most of it. oh well im glad i got something!! it was very unexpected too!! well im gonna go!! i gotta get some stuff done at home and do homework!!! wooo what fun! ;) NOT! -Bailie- **tip: it's best to be single...your heart can't get broken!!!

hey hey!! well it's been a long time since i have last written in this!!! well let's see what has happened since the last time i wrote....well i am 16 now!! woot woot! i passed my drivers test that day!! yay..i have been driving a lot on my own which is a total blast!! :D hmm...well i wanna say thanks for the presents!!! the money will be used to by a new digital camera...a nice one that doesn't last only a few months!!! well im getting a cell phone soon!!! well soon as they talk to people we are with right now!! haha...so ill let ya know when i get that so you can have the number!!! :D home life is okay...not really a good time but yea. don't wanna really talk about it! um...this weekend is the Holidazzle Parade and the Choralaires are going to be in that so yay!! that'll be fun i hope!! :) i just wanna say one thing....BOYS ARE SUCH DRAMA!!! I HATE THEM! well not really but you get what i mean...right?! well i am going to go and do science!!! woohoo!...NOT! -Bailie- im excited for this weekend!!! ;) hehe

YEA...IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!!! I'M FINALLY 16!!!! WOOT WOOT!!! well today was a fun day! sophie, lindsey and i went to BK for breakfast (cause they stayed over night from last night!!! total blast!!) and then we got to school and didn't find anyone!! :( but i found out that they were putting signs up! lol...so yea! then i choked on my water today after lunch and i couldn't breathe at all and yea..it was scary i tell ya!!! lol.... um..after school was okay... i took my drivers test at 3pm!! i passed just BARELY!!! ahhhhh i hated that guy! he was so mean!!!! then lesley (spelling?) christienson (spelling?) was there too at the same time and she passed hers too!! so yea!!!! then my dad get's home and he brings me flowers!!! i was like awwwww you shouldn't have and he's like yea i did! it was nice...then i read the card and they told me that my present wasn't here yet cause they had to order it?! lol...im kind of confused but anxious to find out what it is!!! lol... so then they suprised me with going out to...Jessica came with!! it was a big suprise cause i didn't know she was coming...but it was fun!!! I LOVE KFC!!!! lol...it's the best!!! haha... well i think that is pretty much it!!! im going to go and finish working on my science homework cause it's like 10:37pm!!! and im getting tired and i have 2 sections left!!! :( oh wells... night everyone!!! -Bailie- xoxo

AHHH FUCKING A!!!! that's all i gotta say bye

well neen's party was a blast! haha...we fooled you neen!!! AHAHAHAHAH!!! :D lmao..hope you had fun!!! well i baby sat today...woohoo! what fun! then i came home and made chocolate chip cookies!!! :D they are nummmmmmmmmmmmmmmy! :P lmao.... working tomorrow at like 8am-4:30! come visit me, i work the drive thru so yea!!! WOO!!! -Bailie-

this is a poem i found that kinda relates to how i pretty much feel about guys that i have loved and dated.... ... Now everything is over, Everything is through, And I am left sitting here Not knowing what to do. I've cried so much my tears run dry, And all because of you. Your words burnt through me, Like acid rain, I can't believe this is true, A sad sorry tear drips through my vein. I feel so sorrowful, so dejected, The words ring through my head, I am so damn affected, By everything you say and all that you do, Why can't I let go, I want to be happy too! Even now, I know it's all over, I still sit, wishing, Every time my phone rings, it's you, Every time I see your face, That this all wasn't true. When I see you smiling I feel so much jealousy Why do I keep crying? And how you can go on happy, Why can't I stop crying? Why can't I be smiling? Why is it I have to keep lying? About my emotions, and how I'm dying. It kills me to see you, Yet for some reason I want to, I can't believe what's inside of me, My false hopes are still there, There too strong to shake away. I want to move on And smile a true smile, I want all my deep feelings to be gone, But it's not as simple as you think it may be, This is the hardest thing ever for me well there ya go... tell me what you think of it!! thanks love always, Bailie

well nothing too much new here...just thought to update this thing! um...school is going good i guess! i wish it was still summer but im getting used to going to school now...well the getting up at 6am no but being at school i guess you can say... well i'm fallin' for a guy and i wish i wasn't cause it's causing sooo much pain for me. but it's life i shall go on!!! lol...i love how im so negative then all positive about it!!! :) just like Sophie has been telling me...just hope and pray! :) Love yas girl! haha... hm..well i could write in here for awhile but im not going to cause yea...it'd be boring!! haha going to go!!! -Bailie-

hey hey!!! well last night/this morning was a TOTAL BLAST!!!! I love weddings especially on my mom's side of the family!!! lmao...my cousins are so flippin' hilarious when they are drunk/wasted!!! My cousin asked me if i wanted a drink of her beer and i told her that i don't drink beer and she's all like well what do you drink and i told her and she's all like, " im going to go buy you some and bring it to you!!" and i told no cause my rents were around and she kept on saying, "No no they wont mind" and it was so hilarious!! then my aunt (her mom) was inthe bathroom too at this time with me and my cousin and she's all like when you get old enough to drink...call them!!! lol and then my cousin that was getting married...comes into the bathroom and asks me what i want to drink and i had to explain to her like i did to my other cousin...and she's all like when you turn 21 call us, we are taking you out for a good time!! and my aunts all like yea...you call them!! it was a total blast i tell ya!!! thank god josh wasn't there cause man he would of been bored!!! lmao...ahhhh i love it!! ahhh i got up at like 11:30-12 this morning!!!! it was awesome sleeping in!! I LOVE WEEKENDS!! :D well other than that nothing much really has happened since i last wrote...just the stuff on the wedding!! lmao oh yea....god im getting mad at the people that are going to go see Jackass 2!!! i wanna go so damn bad!!! ahhh....well anyways im going to go back and watch the Vikings!! buhbye, -Bailie-

hey hey!!! wow it's been a loooooooooooonnnnnnnnnnnngggggggg ass time since i have written!!! haha... well i got a new background for one!!! lmao... um...i broke it off with Josh like last week sometime...not really sure when! but it don't matter!!! hm...oh yea!!! i got a hair cut!!! it's fucking awesome!!! :D:D lol...i like it a lot! :) well this weekend i have my cousin's wedding to go to!!! im excited for that!!! woohoo!!! grr i really have nothing to write about.... oh yea!! homecoming was a blast!!! other than the fact that we lost 28-21!! :( oh well! i had fun anyways!!! i loved the rain!! it was totally awesome!!! :D:D hm...i think that about it!! i think...:S well going to go!!!! buhbye, -Bailie-

well well well....im sitting here typing this entry cause my bestest friend sophie (S-Frizzle) told me i had to write one! so i am!!! :D so BE HAPPY S-Frzlle!!! lmao well reason why my name is "darkness is not wanted" cause we went out for a walk at like 1 am today and like we were kinda scard!!!! lmao...good time though!!! There is a tear in my beer cause i am crying for you dear!!! TEHEHE..sophie well nothing too much has really happened since i last wrote! still with josh...(rolling eyes) anyways...school starts tomorrow...or in sophie's world it starts never!!! lmao....they can't make her she says!! hmm...well sophie came over last night (Sunday night) and she colored my hair!!! yes finally!!! :D:D thanks girlie!!! member people....stay away from drugs, don't get into trouble and never go by old men with candy!!!! lmao...good times good times!!! call the po po aight!! lmao Hey yall... guess who this is... droppin into BAILIES (i mean BDIZZLE)'s diary to say YO DAWGS WUTS UP! CATCHA LATERS! UH WORD S-Frizzle!! UH lmao PEASE B-DIZZLE UH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hey hey!!!! wow....long time no write eh?!? well i have been busy lately or i just don't take time!!!! but i am so writting now!!!!! :D:D well i have been working at burger king now for 2 months, 1 week and 3 days!!!! it's crazy!!!! and i don't work with kendra anymore!! :( (tears) she moved to litchfield and i didn't get to say goodbye cause i had to go to bible camp!!! i miss her! well Josh and i have been going out from 1 month and like 2 days! woohoo...not really but anyways!!!! well bible camp was fun!!! except for the fact that we didn't have water for 2 days!!!! the pipe broke so we couldn't take showers for 2 days!!! it was gross... but then we got it back!! so hallejuha (spelling??) met some really cool people there!!! hope to see them again next year!!! let's see....what else to write about?! well school starts soon!!!! im kind of excited but then again im not! oh well.... well i think that covers everything!! buhbye, -Bailie-

ahhh i miss you alll!!!!!!!! :( i hate having to work cause i don't get to see or talk to any of you guys!!!! well i'm getting ready to go to camp next weekend!!! :D HURRA!!! i can't wait...i get to see Dez!!! i am excited...but then sad at the same time cause i have that whole week off and i can't even do anything with my girls!!!! grrr....well when i get we should all do something and hopefully everyone will be home!!! well...hmm i really dunno what to say cause i've been busy with work so hardly anything fun comes my way! haha....well im going to go!!!! -Bailie-

hey hey!!! well saturday josh and i hung out in the morning and then we went to the movies!! we went and saw Cars! it was a good movie.... hurra! and then we came back to my house and then i went to church!!! go me...first since easter!!! man oh man.... good thing his 'rents don't know that!!!! :S well then let's see....monday i worked 11:30am-2pm then i had to go back at 4-8pm!!! that sucked big monkey balls!!!! Tuesday, i went to the pool with Josh and that was a blast!!! then i came home! Bowling was fun!!! we have to do that again!!! hopefully everbody will be there!!!! :D well im going to go!!!! i have to work at 4-7:30 tonight!!! -Bailie-

hey hey!!!! well hope everyone had a good forth of July!!! :D....well i really don't have much to say so yea! well this weekend...i'm thinking saturday...im thinking we could all do something at my house...everyone is invited..including Jason...and if it's alright i was thinking on inviting Josh too!! :S...well i don't know all the details yet but hopefully everyone will be home and able to come!!! :D... well get back to me if y'all think it'd be something you wanna do! going to go!!! buhbye, -Bailie-