when is it ever okay?? when will it ever be justified? NEVER! because its not ment to be justified! it has no justification.

school is coming! im ready. its going to be a good year, i think? it feels like its going to! and im having fun too! like hanging out with a variety of people from school! boys too! =O i know! shocking! me hanging with boys lol jk newayz yea! so how is everyone doing!?!? SONDRA IS DUE IN 4 DAYS! AH!!!!!!!!!!!! =) im gonna be a godmommy.. im gonna be a godmommy... =) it hasent fully hit me yet that were going to have a baby in the house but when it does boy its gonna be crazy! i cant wait to hold the baby in my arms! =) i <3 babies. and if u havent noticed im <3'ing boys right now too.hehe. sorry. <3Neen

school is coming! im ready. its going to be a good year, i think? it feels like its going to! and im having fun too! like hanging out with a variety of people from school! boys too! =O i know! shocking! me hanging with boys lol jk newayz yea! so how is everyone doing!?!? SONDRA IS DUE IN 4 DAYS! AH!!!!!!!!!!!! =) im gonna be a godmommy.. im gonna be a godmommy... =) it hasent fully hit me yet that were going to have a baby in the house but when it does boy its gonna be crazy! i cant wait to hold the baby in my arms! =) i <3 babies. and if u havent noticed im <3'ing boys right now too.hehe. sorry. <3Neen

school is coming! im ready. its going to be a good year, i think? it feels like its going to! and im having fun too! like hanging out with a variety of people from school! boys too! =O i know! shocking! me hanging with boys lol jk newayz yea! so how is everyone doing!?!? SONDRA IS DUE IN 4 DAYS! AH!!!!!!!!!!!! =) im gonna be a godmommy.. im gonna be a godmommy... =) it hasent fully hit me yet that were going to have a baby in the house but when it does boy its gonna be crazy! i cant wait to hold the baby in my arms! =) i <3 babies. and if u havent noticed im <3'ing boys right now too.hehe. sorry. <3Neen

overly whelmed with too many emotions i dont which ones to feel. ichiwawa.

i just got into a car crash. about....2 hours ago? I'm ok. My brother is okay. but im scared shitless. I've never been more scared in my life. I went to the doctors, everything is okay just except that i had a short concussion i keep telling myself, its okay, no-one got hurt, the other is okay. but i cry everytime i think about it. my car is totaled. i dont even remember what i was doing, and i just cant believe i was in a car crash. i thot id let you guys know in case you read about a 16 year old girl getting into a car crash and u start to laugh at it, it was me. how stupid am i. thank goodness im going to my grandparents cabin. i can get away from this town, no-one can ridicule me, the pain will eventually go away. but just as you all are informed. <3Neen

love has officially declined my application. ...... .............. ....................... .................................... ........................................... ....................... .............. ......... ...... ... FOREVER! im just gonna be the little ol' crabby lady on the hill with 6 cats, k? well first im going to be an art teacher cuz thts wht my ma wants me to be and THEN i become old and grey and 6 cats! yes, i cant wait! =] <3Neen

summer is fun! .... ....... ......... kinda. lol i miss hanging with u guys! we definitly need to get together soon...but i never really get to talk to u guys! so yea...lol LETS GET TOGETHER YA YA YA! FRIENDS FOREVER YA YA YA! haha sorry cheesey just kinda popped in my head! lol how is everyone doing?? <3Neen

3 viruses....in one person. thats me. sick! lol 2morrow is the last day of school!! eeeeeeek! =)

the cliff is so high. i feel it crumble beneath my feet. its going to break. everything is stacking higher. higher. and higher. the pressure too strong. my family? gone. what's left? at the bottom of the cliff? my family bit by bit. be strong. don't let your cliff ........ fall.

Nobody wants to admit this, but bad things will keep on happening. Maybe that's because it's all a chain, and a long time ago someone did the first bad thing, and that led someone else to do another bad thing, and so on. You know, like that game where you whisper a sentence into someones' ear, and that person whispers it to someone else, and it all comes out wrong in the end. But then again, maybe bad things happen because it's the only way we can keep remembering what good is supposed to look like -Jodi Picoult, Nineteen Minutes

i wish i could have one person that i could tell EVERYTHING to. i mean i can talk to you guys, but no1 wants to hear that crap over and over again and yea thers a certian point of what you can talk about and what you cant, ya know? i just wish i could find ONE PERSON that knows nothing about my life, who i am, who is in my life and who isnt. and just tell them everything. everything that feels good and feels bad. i mean i can tell brendan alot. but he has his own life ya know? maybe thts why sitdiary was created.....to have someone to talk to 24/7 and complain without ne1 else speaking back...? am i making any sence?

Your Guardian Angel The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus lyrics When I see your smile Tears run down my face I can't replace And now that I'm strong I have figured out How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one I will never let you fall I'll stand up with you forever I'll be there for you through it all Even if saving you sends me to heaven It's okay. It's okay. It's okay. Seasons are changing And waves are crashing And stars are falling all for us Days grow longer and nights grow shorter I can show you I'll be the one I will never let you fall (let you fall) I'll stand up with you forever I'll be there for you through it all (through it all) Even if saving you sends me to heaven Cuz you're my, you're my, my, my true love, my whole heart Please don't throw that away Cuz I'm here for you Please don't walk away and Please tell me you'll stay, stay Use me as you will Pull my strings just for a thrill And I know I'll be okay Though my skies are turning gray I will never let you fall I'll stand up with you forever I'll be there for you through it all Even if saving you sends me to heaven

its amazing how much can change in one day. how everything exsistant. just stops. [silence] were trying to FIGHT for our freedom in iraq to do normal daily things in AMERICA!!! and yet people our threatening our own schools? homes? lives...... what is going on? i feel like life has become soo much more sacred and almost a privilage to have...not a right. [im about ready to break down and cry....yet just the other day...i was probably almost as happy ever. wow....how screwed up am i?.......answer: very]

so im gonna see brendan this summer!!! im reallllllllllllllllllllllllly excited =) hes probably the best thing besides u guys that could have come into my life. i really hope something good comes out of it. cuz if i need nething, it would be him. haha how cheesy. i cant help it =D no matter when im talking to him....its impossible to be sad...n thats a good thing! well im done now hahahaha sorry i just bored ur eyes out. but i felt like sharing.

Like branches of a tree we grow in different directions, yet our roots remain as one. Each of our lives will always be a special part of the other's. The most important thing in life is your family. There are days you love them, and others you don't. But, in the end, they're the people you always come home to. Sometimes it's the family you're born into and sometimes it's the one you make for yourself -Sex & the City

When the worst case scenario comes true, clinging to hope is all we've got left.

Do you Call My Name by Ra (kill me with a beat ) Some people seem to think they always know what's best for you Their little minds try to create a world to keep you still The bolt is thrown, the cage is locked You saw this, don't you lie At first you cry and then you hate those people stole your will... Do as you are told and maybe then we'll let you out You might be dead and cold, you might be full of doubt Don't try to escape cuz you don't have nowhere to go If nothing is your fate... there's no scenario No nothing Do you call my name Do you stain my brain My eyes are blurry and I can't see you anymore Do you call my name Do you breed my pain My heart is bloody and I can't take it anymore So you just sit there, stuck, afraid to risk reality Afraid to cause yourself more pain, to face insanity But nothing ventured, nothing gained You see... your fear's your cage You beg for help but you're alone, stuck in a helpless rage Do as you are told and maybe then we'll let you out You might be dead and cold, you might be full of doubt Don't try to escape cuz you don't have nowhere to go If nothing is your fate... there's no scenario (it's me.... I see, please... let me out I'm petrified) Do as you are told and maybe then we'll let you out You might be dead and cold, you might be full of doubt Don't try to escape cuz you don't have nowhere to go If nothing is your fate... there's no scenario (C'mon) Do you call my name Do you stain my brain My eyes are blurry and I can't see you anymore Do you call my name Do you breed my pain My heart is bloody and I can't take it anymore (2x)

Happy Easter everyone! =)

whats the meaning of FAMILY? i think the definition has been completely lost. i am deeply saddened right now at this moment.