Lets all dance to the sound of failure. Lets face it it's all that we're good at. I woke up in a bad mood. And in a bad mood i'll remain. I think it's the whole 'Seeing my dad thing' thats happening tomrorow. About 10% of me still loves him, shockingly. And that ten percent actually does want to see him, and hopes he is well. It's the other 90% i'm worried about. I have set myself a guideline. 1) I'm not allowed to drink (As that would result in the saying of words that would upset the thing on his arm. Yes by that I do mean 'girlfriend'. But thats the main thing i'm worried about doing. I'm a good actress, really. I can pull of the happy go lucky, everything is peachy thing. No worries. And i'll get some guilt money if i'm super nice. I was doing just fine without him y'know. Then every two years when i've just about though.. yeah i'm okay, who needs a dad, He stumbles back. I have no idea why I put up with it. No-one really does. It's gotten to the point where my family give me no sympathy for crying over him anymore. Bless. They get tired of it after 15 years. Tra la la la la la la.