have you ever wanted so much to be happy that you'd hurt yourself just for that moment? have you ever felt the blood pour out and feel the relief in your shameful release? have your ever dispised yourself so much that you'd hurt yourself to feel alright? have you ever held the knife in your hand and thought this is it this is the end? i didn't think you had so don't judge me when i do 'cause i don't think the same way as you when i do this im not looking for a special mention and i don't enjoy the hurtful attention just accept this as a part of me and maybe some day you will see that im not trying to hurt myself only trying to save what's left please tell me what you think