just had a chocolate bar, that shall be all for the day. yesterday was so scary. i started my pilates class yesterday (with the thinnest person ever :( god i looked so HUGE in the mirror) the teacher turned the air con off, and i hadn't eaten much all day. well shit i over heated BAD. i got really really dizzy, and then everything went all blurry. by that time im thinking shit im gona pass out or throw up, but of corse there was nothing to throw up. so i tried to control my breathing thinking soon soon it'll pass. it didn't. it got worse. i couldn't see a thing! fuck it's never been that bad when this happens. i couldn't see. i was shitting myself. then the teachers voice started to sound funny, like i was floating away somewhere distant. i was so scared. i had to keep listening to the sound of her voice, her voice will keep you there. she came towards me (i could kinda see by then but it was blurry) and i asked her to put the air con back on. she asked if i was alright so i told her i was a little dizzy (understatement of the month!) apparently i was really pale. she made me sit down and drink some water and then some lady gave me some of her power drink. so yea it was amazingly embarrassing for a first class. eek! felt like such a prat! oo and to top it off my stupid fucked up mind started to think. "you stupid bitch, fat, lazy, cow its not cause you didnt eat, it's cause your body can't handle all the food you eat and doing no excersise, stop complainin, just carry on fat bitch! your just so huge you can't do anything, god sake how pathetic are you, everyone must think your so pathetic!" :(