no no no no why did i just do that. a hot chocolate with marshmallows n chocolate sauce that i stupid i knew it was even as i was making it but i didn't stop no i didn't stop. because im weak very weak. my day was ruined i had some bread and butter i shouldn't have done that. i should have thrown it away. i could have i could have got away with it but no. no no no no no im too weak and fat and disgusting i ate it and ate the chocolate. i promiced myself i wouldn't have anything bad, half a dinner meal at the most urgh. i should have just waited till tommorow. stupid mind. stupid me. im disgusting. so wrong. so so wrong. i need to be thin. why can't i just be thin? weighed myself and i've put on 2 pounds so what do i do? go home and have chocolate! gross! :'(