damn it have to go into town..will write what i was going to later. *update* so im back from town, bought loads of shitty school crap i needed. got a application form for a job at a book store, im obssessed with the place so if i got a job there it would be koolie. school sucks i know nothing and exams are comming up. blah. im sooo depressed which aint helping. eating...well... it just seems to be getting worse, if no ones around i cry everytime i eat. otherwise i just have to try so bloody hard not to. im trying to eat 'normaly' cause of exams. its killing me. who can eat this much!!! im having like 2 and a bit meals a day instead of like half, i feel so FAT! i want to talk to my bf but we never see each other anymore cause of revision, only like twice a week compare to our every 2days it sucks a rather lot. i cut again meh wish i could just cut and cut and cut and not have to worry about scars and people seeing them. i hate those scars down my arm, god i was so stupid! im going to have them for the rest of my life now and everyone can see them. blah need to do some work..