dear you. i love you. i truely do. and i know i cruel, mean and at times i can seem uncaring, but i care more than you can ever know. im scared, scared of being hurt and left, betrayed and alone; so i push you away because it's better than letting you in and having you let me down. im sorry i put things on you. i shouldn't do that, i know how much it hurts you. i'm sorry about the other night i didn't mean to scare you but things were all too much. i wont do anything to drastic i promice, i'll always be around. i wont go too far im ok, im in control of that, and i know when to stop. nothing i do is that bad so you really don't have to worry, i'll be ok again soon, i really will. this isn't finished...