Here it is Thanksgiving and I'm upstairs by myself while everyone else is downstaris. I don't know how to explain how I am feeling. Last year, Amye Kate was here and we had such a great time. Now, I'm here alone with no one to talk to and bored. Of course my mom, grandmother, and two of my mom's other friends are downstairs, but what is there to talk about with them? My dad is in the other room with the grandpa and two of his friends, but what could I talk about with them? I don't think much. Now that's why I'm up here since I have no one to talk to. I helped out with the cooking this morning. (We haven't eaten yet.) I told my mom how much I missed Amye Kate. She told me she did too and I wish they were back here. I went outside and just sat on the patio thinking. I didn't have much to think about, but it sorta helped to understand the way I feel. This entry is going to be sappy and self-centered, so stop reading if you want to. I have really great friends, but there is always that one friend that tends to stick out. That would be Amye Kate. I was the first person she met here, I was the one who went on vacation with her, we were the ones that got in trouble together, she was the one who was fought over between me and Lauren. She's my best friend. The best friend who has moved to Atlanta. It's hard to express how much I miss her, but I really do. She's the sister I'll never have. :( I like this guy. He's really nice. I've liked him before, and once I found out he didn't like me, I tried to stop liking him. It worked for a while, and after a while, I forgot about him. Now, I'm having the same feelings reoccur and I'm trying to keep them away, but it seems like that won't happen. I know wanting a boyfriend is a feeling that is very powerful inside me. I try to fight it, but now it's gotten too hard. Courtney is coming over tonight. She's bringing her boyfriend, and I don't want him to come. I'm not jealous, but I miss the times where me and her were close. Yes, she's 2 years older than me, but now she thinks she is very cool, pretty (which she is) and just the best because of her boyfriend. I don't want him to come because I don't know him and I just don't want to have to sit with him at dinner tonight, because it's kind of uncomfortable. Tomorrow my dad is taking me shopping and I'm excited because I like the Christmas season and seeing everyone outside shopping. I'm going to go and try to socialize even though I really don't want to. Happy Turkey Day.