Yeh, so I haven't written in a while. I'm not sure why though. I wanted to write about more stuff and I was too lazy to write in two journal things, so I basically just stopped writing in this one. Hopefully everyone had a great Thanksgiving. I know I did. I'm not really sure how I feel right now. People were asking me if I was ok during computer, and obviously I just said yes because I don't even really know how to explain how I feel. It's weird. Today at school I was just looking around at everyone. I was listening to people laugh and how everyone is so comfortable around everyone. I mean, what am I going to do? Everyone is getting to stay here to strengthen their relationship with their already good friends when I have to go and start over. I don't know if it is just me, but it seems like my good friends are maybe pushing me away in a way, because they don't want to be upset when I move or they just want to try to move on and make a new best friend. Maybe it's just me, but that's certainly how I felt today. In one class, I heard two of my good friends laughing. I feel like I am being just pushed away and that there is nothing that I can do to keep from staying here. Everyone says "Oh you will love it there. You are going to have so many new friends blah blah blah" I don't want people telling me that. That's what everyone is supposed to say when they find out someone is moving. Hell, that's what I even say when I talk to someone that's moving. I just wish they would say I'm sorry or something that could actually be true. Yes, I may like it, but for the time being, I don't like it and I am not going to have any friends. All my relationships are going to change once I move. I know they will. Mine did with Amye's. It really does suck too. I don't know what to do. I don't want to act upset, and for some reason I end up getting mad at my mom, dad, and brother when they haven't even done anything to me. So what do I do? I guess just sit in my room and cry with no one since no one can really help me out. I ran tonight. I really ran my heart out. I just didn't want to stop. I think I ran so much because endorphins are supposed to make you happy. It didn't really work. I don't know. I'm done writing because I don't have anymore time. It's time for homework. Bye