wow.. i just cut my hair.. oh long time no blog.. oh well i just kinda got bored of writting on computers and thought its funner. yeh funner. to go out and do stuff.. anyways. i just cut my hair. half bald and half hairy. yes. hairy. he he. and now im dying it into blackish red.. the smell of the dye ewwwyy.. and all of my hands are full of bloody color.. even my whole scalp is red now.. hmm i wonder what will it be later.. anywho.. ugh im so bored waiting for 45 minutes for this.. what i can do.. hmm hmm im thinking of playing the ps2 but im too afraid that the dye mite go to the sofa.. hmm maybe i'll just watch things that i just downloaded.. yeah that sounds pretty good anywho ttyl =D

since its new year. i think i shud write smth here.. its been so long since i ever write things here.. i dont really feel like writing things on the net anymore lately.. not even for talking on msn.. iunno. it is just getting boring and well i do think i am getting bored of myself.. things are just still the same.. the apartment is great and we've been partying all day this month.. drinking and playing games.. gurls are evil btw.. they can not control their drinking and just be wild after 5 minutes of drinking.. my friend almost jumped out of the balcony and damn we live in freaking 23rd floor apartment!! anywho. things are just ok for me. being lonely and everything same ol same ol. im broke now tho. my new year resolution is not going clubbing anymore and no shopping and dining out! and im gonna go on diet!! and get muscled! damn! i hope those will work out =p oh btw. i just found this site from my friend www.pandora.com !! check it out! its an awesome site for u guys music lovers!! well all in all my life is good. except for those money problem. but i can manage [hopefully] i still am in love with chris and i dont know when this is gonna be over. and he shud call me soon or im gonna stalk him forever! =p HAPPY NEW YEAR GUYS!!!

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!! finally in my new apartment!!! w00t w00t w00t w00t w00t!!! hehe. i now have a awesomely cool place!!! *hugs it sooooo badly* =p now the only thing i need is a boyfriend to share this awesomely new apartment =p [well except that ive shared it with my roomies already] yip yip utay!

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!! party time! w00t w00t.

it was well done. with a little bit edgy. problems that we solved: 1. almost late to the rental truck place. thanks to marcus who can really drive super fast! 2. driver's license. it turned out that they dont accept mine and the guy who was suppose to drive the truck has his driver's license expired. and howard came along and lend his driver's license [well i asked him too =p] and he kinda got paranoid [with obvious reason and i do care about him] so I decided to drive the truck myself. ALL AROUND VANCOUVER AND BURNABY! w00t i rock! =p 3. davie movement is late and they got to go for dinner. SO! theyre gonna bring the stuff by their friend's car. THANKS! U GUYS ROX! 4. storage room is closed and carol is stuck upstairs with all the furnitures still outside the storage room. CHRIS came to help and he gave AWESOME ideas which make us able to move the stuff inside with a little bit technique. CHRIS, U ROX MY ASS TODAY! well he helped me driving too by explaining all the rules while i break them lol. other problems that we still have to deal tmrw in the morning: 1. THE FUCKING EDMONS GUY FORGOT TO GIVE US THE REMOTE CONTROL FOR THE FUCKING TV! so i have to go back to his place tmrw before he goes to toronto. 2. and i have to pay the truck tmrw in the morning before they charged it to my credit card since my credit card is over limit. both of those makes me have to wake up at 6 30 tmrw morning. UGH! so i shud go to bed now. THANKS GUYS WHO HELPED ME. i shud write those names. CHRIS! who really has been helpful! teaching me how to drive in such a SHORT notice. HOWARD! who lend his car and his driving ability to bring all of the movers! U DESERVE A HUGE GIFT TOO! ANDRE, ANDRI, ANDY, NELSON! thanks A BUNGGEE! without u guys, these movement will never ever happen!!!! MARCUS! to drive me super fast to the truck rental place before it closes. w00t! and lastly, CAROLINE AND HELISE who had really helped giving directions and who give their best EFFORTS in order to make all these happening! phew. k thats it. im sleeping.

yesh. it ended. i miss him. if only.... and now. other problems appear. it just never ended does it? if only....

im freaking out. it has been two days. *blah*

i need a boyfriend. things are going out wildly. do you think this time i'll make it thru phase one? ugh. i hope i will. due to the long time not having a real relationship, it seems that there's a barrier from all the dates ive been going out with to make it real. i dont know.. it seems so hard for me to make fling dates into real ones. even if we've done wild stuff on bed. its not real. i want a real relationship. where people really love each other. and have fun together. its hard to find one i guess. lets just hope this time i can work things out. love. me.

cant u just grow up and say sorry? im not gonna call you or email you. i miss you too but im just gonna stay hard this time. i cant let you do the same thing over and over again. im tired of the same little drama you're making everytime you feel icky about me. stop talking behind the bush. k i think im done ranting.

money problem can be sucky sometimes. so i have to spend 2000$ prolly to move to the apartment [furniture and stuff]. and then paying the tuition fee on november for 6000ish$ [good thing the scholarship will pay me back sometime later]. and then paying the dentist 1200$ for that stupid dental accident =s. fuck. im soooo dead. plus my dad asked me to buy that disney costume stuff and it costs me 600ish$. like im the money producer. =C as if its not enuff yet. the insurance and telephone bill will surely come next week or so. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. rich guy, save me. =p

Im lost in 3 out of 5 courses im taking rite now. ahh. im having econ quiz again tmrw and spanish midterm. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!! im sooooooooo scared. this is the first time i ever feel stupid at school. hasta ma[ny]ana. ciao amigos.

school is annoying. lotta quizzes and tests. having a flu =s found a REALLY NICE APARTMENT!! in edmons. far far away. but REALLY AWESOME! so im prolly gonna move there next november if the owner of the apartment accept us. lets just hope so tha tha for now. im having a headache with runny nose now =s and i still have a quiz to study and a homework to do =( and its midnite ahhhhhhhhh!!

my weekend has been hectic!!! lol it even starts on thursday where i have to go to the mall with howard to get a present for his boyfriend. and then carol and helise and i went back to my place and we all played game of LIFE lol. i just bought it that afternoon for only 2$ in my college garage sale and its brand new!!! i cant believe it!! lol so yeah we played it til later in the night and i spend the rest of the night watching the first season of QAF since i havent ever watched that show lol. friday was kinda interesting. carol and helise and i were searching for apartment right now to move in together. two gurls and me lol. so we went to an apartment to check it out but it was too small for 3 people and now we're still searching for a good one. there's actually one available above paramount [a new theater in downtown where we usually watch movies] and we're gonna check it out tommorow. I HOPE ITS A KEEPER. lol i cant imagine living just on top of the infamous paramount LOL. oh and i watched corpse bride with helise and carol and it was cool. altho i still love the nitemare before christmas better. and then i went to the gab and had nachos nite or smth. it was boring lol. next to the O to watch the drag shows as usual lol it was blah this week. not as exciting as it was last week lol. the only bad thing that day was that i went back home at around 1 30 after the show coz i dont wanna miss the bus and i had to work in the morning the next day. and i kept on waiting for my bus and i asked several times to the 41st and oak bus drivers if my bus gonna come or not and i kept on waiting and waiting until the last bus oak and 41st came at 3 and told me that those other bus drivers, who told me that the bus is gonna come, actually dont know about the 41st bus schedule and ive been wasting my time waiting for my bus. and so ive wasted 2 hours and had to walk home for an hour or so =( and its so cold outside and i didnt use any jacket coz howard forgot to bring my jacket which i left in his car before lol. [lol sorry for the longest sentence ever] if u get confused just ask =p and then saturday. bigC gave me a job to help him doing his garage sale. and so i went there to help and get paid w00t w00t and he gave me a new roller blade which he never used and some other cool stuff :D and then i went home and take a nap since i had only 3 hours sleep since i got home at around 4 and had to wake up at 630 =s. howard called me at around 8 to ask if i wanna watch flight plan. so i went to another movie and it was ok. the story was kinda interesting. but just a dvd-worth-watching kinda movie =p after the movie, howard asked me if i wanna play board games lol. so us plus helise went back to howard's bf place [he owns like MILLIONS board games lol]. we played some weird board game but it was really fun. hehe and we played that until 5 am and i had to wake up at 9 the next day.. so yeah on sunday when i just woke up i had a huge headache. it was annoying and i spent the whole day studying with my friends again LOL. we basically hang out the whole weekend lol. but we really did study this time. i finished all my homework and study spanish a lil too. so IT IS ALL GOOD AND FUN :D:D:D:D:D:D lol oh and this entry is just a copy paste from an email that i sent to my friend BUMS =p

hokay. i didnt drink. but im having a huge hang over rite now LOL. weekend has been too much fun. ive only slept for prolly 2 or 3 hours lately. and its killing me. i hope i wont get sick on monday. but today.. its study day. time to actually really study. im gonna go to the library soon to study with carol and helise and some other people. lets hope i wont sleep there lol. laterz. oh btw for BUMS!! u can leave message here too u know. and for [anonymous (154.20.131.47)]. the reason why i didnt talk to u is because u never said sorry. and well i dont know ur new phone number anyways lol so yeah. dont blame me. read carefully. and i still misses chris *eep*

i wanna move to an apartment. three bedrooms with carol and helice. near skytrain and perhaps in downtown as well. just got the news from carol that the apartment that we was gonna rent cant accept us coz we're all below 25 =( i hope we'll find a good apartment. yuuki is coming soon. i hope today is gonna be a good day.

hectic it is. ahhhhh i cant stand it lol. boring lectures and all that. =( i miss summer. but yeah. i'll get used to the condition of this boring endless school again. as my teacher says, we have to change our perception in order to enjoy something. so yeah. school is lovely. *eeeep* anywho. lol.. things have been going on well i believe. had a date on saturday with yuuki and it was good. the only bad thing is meeting those indonesian guys which just complicate things up. i dont know whether i shud tell wisnu about me being gay or not since caroline has already known about it. but then i rarely see him anyways. havent talked to chris too lately. he says hello million times but im always not here. =( i kinda miss him. america's next top model is on tonite. or tmmorow nite. but i saw the tv schedule today and it says there's america's next top model. altho not in citytv. lol im gonna be a tv fan soon i think. lol its america's next top model on wednesday, amazing race on tuesday, and the oc on thursday lol. and there will be will and grace too soon. i wanna watch their first live show. i dont know when tho. anyone knows? lol well i think its getting too long and boring lol. i always rant everytime i write this. but yeah. school is boring and lotta work.

k so long time not to make a new entry. hehe. im bored with making one. but today i kinda remember the time when i was making one on hi5 just becoz john has one and he's my first friend here and his journal is always interesting. well at least until he met that guy who break his heart tremendously, making him stop being a normal guy. he never goes online anymore afterward, spending most of his time studying and not having any life. oh well. i miss him sometimes. well not so much has been happening. school is starting and im missing summer already. my summer ends with whistler trip, working at pne and with bigC, and hanging out after work. hehe yesterday. was fun. i went everywhere in the city, searching for this lady's house in richmond.coz she's selling a sofa bed for only 40$. so i bought it for my living-bedroom. hehe. my room is sooo cool rite now. i have my own tv, dvd player, ps2 all in my room. plus that bedsofa now. so ppl can stay over in my house now w00t w00t. and at the later nite. i went to the O with bigC, howard and markus. it was fun :D :D :D there's this icequeen drag competition. go Kristina Cash!! i hope u win. hehe. theyre all funny. and i have to drink smirnoff to vote. and i get tipsy easily lol. it was bad. i have to get home alone too. coz howard is spending his nite with markus. and bigC is getting a ride from nick, his employee. so yeah i have to wait for the bus tipsy and all lol. i missed my stop too haha. which made me have to walk for 8 blocks. oh well. it was fun :] today. going to work for bigC in his deck with alfred. then howard will join us in the evening to help us moving the bedsofa to my place w00t w00t. i hope it will all be fun today :D u guys have a fun day too :D

had happened lately. i have so packed schedule every day until the school starts. at first i think YAY im gonna be busy. but now. UGH im soooooooooo tired. lol well i'll start with monday. worked in BigC's place [again]. another yukky moment. and i think this time its worse. coz it involves the smell sense and the visual sense. so yeah its WAYY WORSE. lol oh well. at least i get extra money. then i went for lunner with bigC and alfred and its my free lunner yay :] tuesday went to tony's ITS AWESOME!!!! the ribs in jkt is way better tho :p but yeah. i finally tried the restaurant with alfred bigC and howard. and then howard and i went to the oddysey and it was fun until this old fuking fat guy came up to us. it went downhill lol. and we just leave and go back to my place. wednesday. we both cant sleep and kept on playing and poking each other lol. and then we talked for a long time and i cant sleep at all. well howard too. so we just went silent until morning came up lol. trying to sleep. lol and then the morning we got up and get ready to go swimming. the swimming was SUPER FUN!!! we went there with alfred and floret. and we tried EVERYTHING THERE lol. it was awesome!!!! i'll miss those fun times. with howard going out with someone and florent leaving around canada. and me going back to school. =( and oh it is also the day i tell christopher that im gay. he just moved in downstairs and so i just told him and he totally accepted it!! =D thursday. i got morning shockness. my dog died. hit by a car and burnt by the neighbour. ='( i cried the whole morning while calling howard coz i dont know who to talk to. it was kinda embarassing. but oh well. i need someone to talk to when im really sad. I LOVE U BUDDY AND IM TOTALLY GONNA MISS U. i still remember the first time i met him. and he was still sooo small and black and naughty. and everytime i hug him he always lick on me and everything. it was soo cute. =((( and then i have to get ready to pne with bigC alfred florent christopher and jason. it was fun. a lot of new rides. i went to play them all. and got sunburnt [again] lol. it was super tiring tho. i also watched the superdogs and the motocross show. and i visit yogi coz im gonna work there later. so yeah. then i went for dinner with alfred bigC and jason. florent and christopher went home first coz they both got sick of the rides lol. then i went home and call lilC. i havent talked to him for soooooo long. and we missed each other soo much. :] so yeah that is it. i shall go now. i'll be super busy again til tuesday. i mite be able to write again then. :]

I KNOW WHO'S THE ONE CALLING ME A CHEATER!!! HAHAHA OMG!!! im not gonna talk to u until u said sorry. =p totally not gonna talk to u. omg how cud u be so mean calling me that? u dont even know anything and just assumed things? and what the hell. did kevin intimidate u or smth? i dont have any cheating problems with chris or jason or anyone else. they all know about what im really having. and i only date a guy at a time. geeez. unlike someone who just assume things and calling me a cheater for somewhat reason. lol good thing bigC tells me a hint that totally give out ur identity. im not gonna say names. but yeah lol i know who u are and i have the proof now. HAHAHA. busted!!!

lol i cant believe it is the 100th entry. thanks for someone who actually mentioned it to me :D so anyways. i was gonna write the weekend when suddenly i press the wrong button and i completely delete all those stuff that ive written :s and so im just gonna type things that happened today. since today is such a fun day :D :D :D thanks to howard :D hmm i went for lunch at earls with chris and alfred and howard, then howard and i went to downtown and we went around robson and go shopping lol. i bought 4 cool big movie posters coz virgin is closing and theyre having all movie posters 75% discounts. and then i bought a ring and a polo shirt in le chateau again lol. and then we went around and go to gab and it was fun there and i finally mingle well with the people there so it was great. and then we went for dinner in zakushi which ive been wanting to go since a long time ago. and then we went to watch a movie red eye and its sooooooo good. its so intense and i yelled soo loud lol in the end of the movie coz its super surprising and well many people yell too :P and then we laughed our ass off coz i yelled so loud :p we had soooooo much fun today. and for the really good news. everything went sooo well for me today. i finally manage to do anything including the whistler trip well. i called alfred and chris to ask if they cud go on the 19th-30th instead of 31st-1st and they totally cud. and then i called the hotel and they said that i cud change the date to those dates YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYY!! and i called yogi to ask if i can reschedule my work shift that day and he said i cud :BIG THANKS FOR MICHELLE WHO HELPED ME: *hugs* and so I AM GOING TO WHISTLER ON THE 29TH-30TH with alfie chris and howard W00T W00T. thanks for howard SOOOOOOOOOO MUCH!!!!! :hugggggggggssssssssssssss: lol so yeah.i shud prolly go to bed since my contact just fell off my eye :p too much excitement i guess. later guys :] thanks for the people who has been positively commenting my journal :]