listening to the song the used-on my own. really makes me feel lonely. i do feel a bit lonely today. seeing couples. i wish i have someone who i know can be with me and always be with me. the song kinda reminds me at the time when i was being sad about raymond. when i finally realised that nothing will ever happen between us. and i just had a hard time too from bryna and ray. altho that wasnt really a big deal :p raymond. its been so long since i ever think about him again. i talked about him some nites ago with helice. and it does bring back memories. when we were really really close and were like brothers. i miss those fun times. old times. things that i wud never get again. im used. im not fun as i used to when im still a kid. times when i can just laugh without thinking of anything. just play and having fun. im still afraid of being a grown up. thinking about the jobs, money and future. i need someone who i know will be always there for me i think. someone who can support me from the inside. lol why am i talking about this [song suddenly change to imperial starwars theme coz of the shuffle thingy.lol] so anywho. i shall go to bed. its 5 already. and i have to wake up at 8 to call chris. love u chris. :]