WOW..this week was horrible..ive got a ton of bad news..:( i think im getting a little better..well at least im making myself think that..idk..i feel really mad and angry...like all i want to do is to is like beat the living shit out of everyone that breathes..but when its that time of the day, i just need to hit something or destroy and ruin something, i get so mad and i cant think..when i get like this i dont know what to do..because it happenes everyday and i feel like im goin insane..but im not..because im not insane.. friends?..yeah i walk with people in the halls and such..but i really dont feel accepted let alone worthy...i mean i do laugh with them but nothing they say is really that funny..and if it is then i dont even remember y i even laughted..and im not one to talk because i dont think i knwo what funny is because i say shit to make people laugh but it isnt funny either...i cant even tell a fucking story without getting my point across, if i even know what my point was to even talk...i dont know what the hell is wrong with me...any ideas? my hand...well 2 words...it (fucking) hurts..its swollen and all that good shit but i like it..im thinking that i might have cracked a bone because of reasons i cant explain logically..i might do it again because it helps...