well idk trying to figure things out..and what to do about this girl..im not gay or anything i just really care about her..adn i do love her.. and i think she knows that i just wish there was somehting i could do..like save her or something crazy like that but idk i just wish that everythign i did didnt seem so aweful..maybe what i do is aweful but idk i need to change and i am determined to find somthing that will work and if i dont i will still always think and hope shes doin alright even tho she may not be.. it takes a lot more than wishing to to all these things it takes actions and im trying ot act on my wishes its just i never seem to do the right thing...and i dont knwo what the right thing is or maybe i do and it just seems wrong..idk but i need ot figure it out..and im trying to figure it out..its just not working but ill keep trying as long as blood is in hers and my veins..ill keep trying ..any advise please inform thank you goodnight