I was standing in the street, Only checking the mailbox, My cigarette lit the road, It glared, as our only light, You were thinking how you could get him to like you, I was wishing a car would run me over, I was spinning around in circles, You were only watching, I was screaming like I was 4 years old, I heard you over my screams, But it wasn't really clear, You jumped up from the ground, Just beside the road, You ran to me, Got me off of the road, I was still dizzy from spinning, And a 18 wheeler passed by so fast, I closed my eyes, I imagined if you weren't there, Tears flooded my eyes, I looked at you and knew you loved me, As much as a friend could, That day I wanted to die, I had tried just before I came over, A gun in my mouth with no pictures in my head, But my brains on the wall, In my parents' bedroom, As I heard the click and knew I wasn't dead, I cried just as I am now, Knowing I have to live if only for you.