today was just a horrible day..first off i had to go to some gay therapy session with my dad to help our relationship but its not gonna happen because i hate him...and yeah,Dr. Brand is a fucking dil hole she thinks shes so smart and shit..because im positive that my dad left out many many details to many different occasions and shes only herd his side of the damn story...this is bull shit...even tho i hate my mother too, id rather have to spend my time at my moms house than his so lets hope thats what the judge thinks too... and then later today i had to go to the hospital because my neighbor whose liek a grandma to me is dying..she had a cardiac arrest or something like that and heart failure adn her kidneys are failing as well..shes deff gonna die soon...becuase she taking medicine that will keep her alive so she can see her daughter one more time and then i think shell pull the plug on her own life because its gotta be fucking boring being old and not doing like BINGO or whatever it is old people do..so yeh and my cell phone is still gone so idk when ill b gettin that back..its not like i need it anyways no one calls me so y do i need the damn thing anyway ..i guess it makes me feel ike i have more friends than i actuacially have..so yeah......um.. maybe ill talk tomarrow *pull the trigger and the nightmare stops*