I am sorry from now on I will be looking at things through a positive prespective, or at least try to. Damn I didn't want to get hurt, but it would hurt me if you thought I wanted to hurt you. The world is open to me I have no one to blame for it. The life that I am wanting to live is waiting for me to live. I also realized that I was drowning myself into self-pity I am sorry. I don't think I will go or do anything for awhile