cant see a damn thing and i dont wanna get my glasses. ack w/e changing my wardrobe this summer so i need to make as much money as possible. i have tooo many clothes my mother picked out n its not me. she's prolly gonna freak out when my wardrobe goes sumwat mostly blak. some color i suppose but not wut she wants. anyone got ne ideas on what to do to make money? my mother wont let me babysit which is reeli shitty. when im unexpecting she springs babies on me- then when i actually want to do sumthing n im prepared "no, ur not good at it" i mean wut the fuck. how am i supposed to b good when im not prepared. id play games w/ them, go outside, have dinner, get them ready for bed, read to them, n watch an "educational" movie. ive had babysitting in my mind since i wuz lyk 8 but i knew i had to wait til i wuz old enuff. this is bull man. im doin it newayz- call up sum ppl w/ children n set up sum dates. god i cant wait til july- y duz my bday hafta b lyk...so far into the yr. i wont b able to write for a week n july cuz ill b at camp. ill put up a notice when the time comes so u dont hafta come here checkin..unless u wanna- that'll make me feel appreciated..haha. o its sooo good to have an online diary that no one from skool knows about. now i have a sense of being. ...i wanna go out n buy a CD. not sure which one but i just want to buy it. but i have no money...this is y i need a job. oooo i can work @ mcdonalds after july. hahaha. drew is the coolest guy, man!! went over to his house yesterday cuz they were having an OM meeting n i wuz the audience/timer. ryan n kiara were fucking it up cuz they got into a fight n drews lyk "i am dismayed at u two for this. the competition is in what- 10 hours?? and u (points 2 kiara)had no right to cuss at him. u mayb thinking that i sound like a grown up- well yea, i do!!" n kiara wuz being a bitch n wudnt call a temporary truce between her n ryan just for the competition. i wuz thinking common bitch, this is drews house. u hafta respect him for letting u use his house and for trying to keep the group together. thats just shit on ur part ...kyle winters is a giant...and he eats alot...DUDE I TALKED TO HIM B4. he said i wuz his kinda girl. *rolls on floor* i didnt realize it til i got home. i dont think i have ne friends. least ne true ones neway. there r those i talk to n sum that ill tell things to but i dont reeli call them friends unless theyre there. mayb erica is the closest ya know. aw fuck it man- w/e my mother says im annoying. i say im only annoying to her cuz i dont talk much at school unless i say sumthing funni. i dont think most children are annoying to neone but their parent. their patients is worn to thin to deal w/ children- thats wut causes abuse in sum cases i suppose. 2day is I-search proj day. i need to get it over w/ that way i wont hafta do it on SOL week. gah- SOL testing all next week. im sooo screwed!