my mother just finished yelling at me for making a mistake. she wants the perfect child but duznt understand that im not it. i make mistakes, stupid ones i might add, but all the same im a kid. im not that bright and i dont normally think before i act cuz thats not the way i wuz made. guess ill just b me n let her yell. it brings me down like im the biggest screw up in the world. i told her that brought me down in 4th grade but she still does it like my feelings dont matter. apparently they dont to her. yea im lazy, yea im selfish, but im working on it goddamn it! enuff of that, im probably boring you to death. i cant eat. my teeth actually hurt for the first time with braces and next month will b a yr since i got them. heh hoo knew. i say its the coils. this is wut ibuprofen is for! i think theres something rong with me. i keep getting this headache, off and on, and this morning i took a 3 hour nap after nine hours of sleep. i thot my mom wuz going to yell at me for not doing something productive so i wuz ready to put up defenses but she actually asked if i wuz feeling okay. i personally think i am feeling okay- that wuz when i didnt have a headache. wake.me.when.this.nightmare.is.over. i blieve my life is slowly falling to pieces. its not even anywhere near as bad as some ppl have it, but i dont know wutz rong with me. mayb i have some kind of...i dunno. i thot a shower wud make me feel better so i washed my hair. absolutely nothing. i want to take another nap but i dont think thats such a good idea. //edit- trying to get my diary just right. not too much crap like some ppl have but not too boring. think ive got it where i want it. wuddaya think?

let me dream sweet dreams. let me live them through.