I haven't wrote on this for along time. My life is a wreck. My so called boyfriend fucked a girl the other nite. I didn't really want to see him but I seen him at a party last nite. I was suppose to go to Orlandos Dance Club thing tonite but my dad thinks I'm gonna wreck and end up like my brother. I'm thinking if he doesn't want me to end up like Bryant then I might as well be dead so he won't have to worry bout me. My brother is driving me crazy. He gets on my nerves so fucking bad. He will get mad at me and I will try and get him so fucking mad that he almost hits me. I know this sounds bad but I like want him to hit me so I can call the cops and get him arrested. But he hasn't hit me yet. Well I can't think of much to write so laters. -Alyssa-