Josh broke up with me last night. I'm beginning to realize that every guy I have ever dated has pretty much used me. The only person that didn't use me was Alex. I really wish he didn't have to move and then get killed in a fucking car wreck... What are you called if you don't like guys and you don't like girls? That's kinda how I feel right now. I don't feel like I belong anywhere. Tonight is prom. I don't know if I want to go to the walk in now. I wish I could go out tonight and get fucked up so I can forget things. I'm fucking tired of my life. I want to go and live on my own just so I can start over. Alyssa