.... To get you back in my life, for you to care about me once again... love me once again, stare into my eyes, and tell me im beautiful once again, walk with me hand in hand and and make me feel so happy i could die, once again. I miss you... although you're still here... You're not so far away, and yet i can't get my hold on you, i can't get to you!... Not the real you, the you that i loved, the you i wanted to be with forever. I've tried so hard to overcome this... to get through this and i can't... not alone. Why dont you listen to me? Why cant you understand? Why dont you care that inside im dying, trying to cope alone, i have nothing without you... everyone ive ever had has left... and now you're on the verge of doing it... i dont know what to do, im panicking, im scared, i dont want to be alone. I love you, too much... i want to be away from you, as far away as possible, to make the hurt a little less, but i cant leave... i cant leave. Everyday of my life is spent wondering... 'what if' imagining how we would have been, me you and our baby, our precious... tiny little combination of us. It's not your fault, not your fault you dont care, but please, if you're only in it for the ride, please leave, neither of us can go through this anymore. I need you right now... and where are you? The place you always are when i need you...please just tell me where i stand. 'I'd love to walk away, pull myself out of the rain but i can't leave without you, I'd love to live without the constant fear and endless doubt, but i can't live without you'