today i actually took the time to get all pretty, after all it is easter. i had ham and macroni salad, and other stuff, but the point is i pigged out and now i feel like BLAH. ( or at least my stomach does.) i am wearing a new outfit, and i never understood why but having a new outfit always made me feel speacial, if it were handed down to me. mabe because it was new, but not new. get it? but oh well, you can't have it all. my friend got a boyfriend and that boy is one of my ex's. i haven't talked to him in a long time and the point is, i got into alot of trouble that summer,( but it was fun) and now that they are talking i will be talking to him to and i don't know if i wanna do that agin. it was actually quite kaotic when i was with him, but WHATEVER. if i didn't want to talk to him i wouldn't have spoken with him. and i do belive that everything happens for a reason, so this could be good right? um, oh well..... i am a chocliholic ( i kno i spelt that wrong )and i got so much of it today i will end up giving myself a tummy ache. capt starts tomorrow for me, and i am even more nervous. i kno i will pass the english, but everything elese is a bit shaky.that means i'll just have to study - alot. whatever it takes, cause i don't particularly want to take them agin. anyway i gotta go and live my boring life...... mabe i'll call mat.